Exit from darkness !




Todays blog post is a bit different then what you are used to get from my hand. Acesalus.com usually place high emphasis on science and every article and every fragment of advice is based on what the science says or by questioning the validity of science, when it doesn’t add up.

But today, as we – for now – puts closure to the theme on mental illness, I am going to do things quite differently. I am going to tell you my own personal story – with depression, completely striped down and naked.

It’s my hope that I might be able to inspire someone out there to fight and overcome it, and if just one person finds inspiration and a better life then it’s been worth it.

My story starts back in the year 2000. At the time I was franchising a 7-Eleven store, and I was at a place where although stressed and from time to time under huge pressure I felt that I could do anything in the world that I put my mind into. In a lot of ways, that was also what I did.

However that year also set off my first depression, and started life events that would mark me for the rest of my life.

What happened was that I was faced with 3 armed robberies that year – and as luck would have it, I was working all 3 times.

First one didn’t bother me much really. It happened and I moved on. Six months later, I found myself looking into a gun barrel once more – and this time I felt the adrenaline rush through my veins differently then the first time, but again I brushed it off as a random event. Yet it shouldn’t be more random then the event reoccurring two weeks later but very differently.

It was early morning, still dark, and I was actually having my back to the door while sorting that days delivery of news papers. I did not hear the door open, I didn’t hear his steps either, not a sound until I heard the sound of the gun hammer being pulled back. I have no idea how I was able to recognize the sound, but I instantly knew what was going on, and as I turned around I remember thinking “Shit, not again !”.


But what I found when I turned was not even slightly close to what I had expected. At this point I was looking at a tall skinny person dressed completely in black, with exception of the white pattern of the skeleton on his face mask. If you remember the Scream movies that was popular at the time – that was exactly the mask he was wearing.

He pointed the gun at me and ordered me to empty the cash register in his carry bag – I remember considering while doing it, wether or not I could in any way press the alarm without making a weird movement, and gave up on that idea while watching the gun point to my chest. Then at that point the most dreadful thing happened – as I was in the process, he said something to me, I’ve forgotten today what it was, but it made the blood in my veins freeze to ice, as I could recognize the voice. I could very distinctively recognize the voice, but something blocked me from placing a face to the voice.

Now what really shook me around this last time was knowing that it was someone that I knew but not knowing who it was. Actually a few days after I had an idea who it was, but not knowing his name or being sure that it was him, it became a suspicion that I never said out loud. However seen in the backlight before the robbery he was at the store several times a week, after that incident I never saw him again – so maybe I was right after all.

The experience was traumatic, and during the following months I asked 7-Eleven to arrange conversations with a counsellor. That however was denied, on the grounds that their counsellor service was only for employees not for franchisors. So rather then dealing with it I ended up on anxiety medication, frightened to be alone, and frightened to walk into my own store.

It took me a year to get back on my feet and out of the medication. One of the tools to do this was letting go of the store and moving into a new environment.

However medication or not, the trauma remained there and few years later, everything began to pop up again. This time I went to my doctor in the hope of being send to a counsellor, but given a 6 month waiting list for a counsellor he decided that it would be better to place me on medication. I was given Cipralex, at the time a pretty new drug used to treat depression.

So over the next 6 months sudden anxiety attacks, dark and depressed thoughts was replaced with bad memory, low physical sensitivity, fatigue, and constant cognitive decline ( A few times I actually experienced to call the wrong person up and not realizing it until I was way into the conversation) , and a constant feeling of being “high” on something – as if I was there, but I was not.

By allowing myself to rest, find my place in life and redefine my purpose and the support and love of a few select friends I managed to get off the medication and return to life.

But it was not without a price. previously I had been known for having and elephants memory of even small details, but since taking the Cipralex I lost that extraordinary memory function and it has since taken years to retrain my brain up to normal memory function. On the physical side of things the sensitivity in my nerves and finer movement has suffered as well.

The next years that follow I was in and out of depression, but whenever I was in it was always for limited times of 1-2 months and never with the agony of that first great depression, until the summer of 2016.

That summer passed a lot of events on me. Primarily cut backs at my workplace of the time combined with a new leadership structure and a team spirit that was changed from “We stand together” to “Survival of the fittest” drew major strains on my mind control.

When at the same time I had to let go of what I had at the time defined as my life purpose and highest passion – I fell completely to the floor, I was overwhelmed with fatigue, very dark and hopeless thoughts, as if life had no meaning and no joy.

From there on it was like a freefall, I stoped my workouts (I used to be at the gym 4-5 times a week), I isolated myself as I had no energy for being social and if I had to be around people it would take me hours, and sometimes days, to work up the energy for that.

As an attempt at overcoming the problem, I decided to change job, and getting into a new positive work environment did push me in the right direction. However it should not last very long, as at the same time I got in contact with a person who thrived on bullying, harassing and belittling me – unfortunately that contact was in a context where I couldn’t just walk away. I was back at working, sleeping and eating because that was all I had energy for.

But that was also the time when sleeping failed me. I stoped being able to fall asleep and for the next 6 months I was sleeping 2-4 hours per day, after spending hours upon hours trying to fall asleep. If I was lucky then once a week my body would give up and sleep for 10-14 hours.

It is obvious that this was not healthy in any way, neither physically or mentally, and as I look back at it now, I often wonder how I survived.

The simple explanation to my survival is because I got sick and tired of feeling miserable. I started to rethink why I am here, what is my my purpose of being alive – and put it down on paper. One of those purpose defining things is actually this blog and the formation of a company devoted to promoting healthy life choices and natural alternatives to common health care.

At the same time as I took this step, I started surrounding myself with people with a positive insight to life, and who could build me up through personal development.

This was a life changer. I started to feel excitement sprout again. But I was still not getting regular sleep, fatigue was still after me like a demon in the night and though I was capable of smiling it never really hit the eyes.

So how could I get the last bit of way ? I asked myself that question many times. Given what the antidepressants I was given years earlier ruined for me – that was one path that I knew I would never take again. But what then ?

That was when I was introduced to a new supplement named VIVA. In my previous article I went through the science of Saffron as an antidpressant and anti anxiety remedy.

Saffron was exactly what this supplement was based on – So with the knowledge of Saffron as a well studied remedy for better sleep, better mood and less anxiety I was excited to try it out.

But what happened next impressed me more then any product had ever impressed me. The positive side of supplements is that they usually work better then pharmaceutical drugs on the long term – because they take care of the underlying root causes of disease, rather then just being a symptom treatment. They are usually also safer because they are simply food, but the downside is that most supplements takes time to work, and I have never seen a supplement that work faster then a pharmaceutical drug.

So when I decided to test VIVA I took 2 tablets shortly before bedtime, and within half an hour I was sound asleep. I followed the procedure the following two nights with the same result. But whats further more is that I felt energetic at the point of waking up. On the 3rd and 4th day I also experienced radically enhanced mood levels. I was so impressed because not even pharmaceutical antidepressants work this fast.

Today I’ve found a formula that works perfect for me – one tablet of VIVA in the morning to enhance my mood and two tablets 15 min. prior to bedtime for improved sleep.

In my mind there’s no doubt that the main reason why we have ever increasing problems with mental illness is that our food today is deprived of nutrients like Omega 3 and antioxidants so that chronic inflammation in the brain causes levels of serotonin to fall, and by depriving us of the nutrients that’s supposed to give us fuel to cope with challenging events in life – simultaneously as we now soround ourselfs with more and more challenging lifestyles.

If you want additional information on VIVA with Saffron then you can find it on this link or by clicking the image on the right. Also I would be happy to answer any questions you might have or go into more details with the process I went through – In that case you are welcome to send me a private message through my Facebook Page. All private messages remain that – private !

Making your primary circle work for your mental health !




In our latest article we looked at pharmacology’s chance to be the solution to mental illness, and we came to the conclusion that psychiatric pharmacology has very little chance to solve the ever increasing problem.

Now why is that ? Well my argument is that mental disorders are not a medical problem but a lifestyle and society related problem. You and I, we create people with mental illness every day because of what we demand of each other. Next we give them a drug in the morning and at nighttime and society has taken care of the problem – and we’ve even saved our community a lot of money because it’s cheaper then therapy. Yet the problem is – psychiatric drugs calms the symptoms for a while, without curing the root problem, until the chemicals we’ve filled those people with has made them so sick that it bursts.

Mental illness has existed as long as history remembers – yet in the ancient times insanity was also used to cover up for ideas from people who was thinking things that was uncomfortable for the elite. Still mental illness was not nearly as common as today.

WHO estimates 300 million people suffering from depression world wide. Try to say this out loud – 300 million suffering from depression ! This does not include bipolar, schizophrenia, OCD, ADD, ADHD, etc…… dear friends, that’s a lot of people.

So when did we start to see this boom in mental illness ? Well it wouldn’t be to much of an assumption to say that the more industrialized our society has become the higher the count of people with mental disorders.

So what does that all tell us ? What has changed gradually as society has industrialized ?

1). Food quality : This is a sure winner. If something has changed for the worse along with industrialization this is it ! The more industrialized society has become the more our food has changed from low calories with lots of nutrients to higher in calories with less if any nutrients. More and more we use synthetic nutrients over the real thing, which often cause more turmoil then good.

2). Exercise : The more industrialized that our society has become the less manual labour has been done. Before industrialization the men worked hard in the fields, mines, on the docks, etc and the women worked just as hard by doing their chores in the home. All of it was manual labour. Exercise came as a natural part of life – today machines are doing most of our manual work and exercise is something we need to schedule.

3). Social life: The way we socialize with other people has also changed with industrialization. Industrialization has created a society where both husband and wife has to work and the hours we need to put into working is increasing. The result being that they loose social time together, with their children – who’s been parked at day care because mummy and daddy has to work. Those times has also passed when friends just dropped by to say hi – we need to schedule time to be social today.

Simultaniously we demand more and more of each other. Colleagues, employers and friends all expect of you to be perfect and always say YES ! Result – the intimate social relations we need from our spouses, children and friends suffer on the alter of career and living up to expectations.

In continuation of that, when I see the behavior of teens and young adults today, I see a frightening image of a group of people who long for recognition whether that’s if they look good enough, if what they do is good enough or if they themselfs are cool enough. I don’t know how you look at this image, but to me it’s increasingly frightening, and I can’t make any other conclusion that what they really lack is the attention of their parents, and if they dont get that then any attention good or bad is better then none.

In my opinion….before we start looking at how to treat mental illness we need to dig down below to the root cause, what has triggered all these cases ? Whats wrong and how do we make our primary circle work for us ? When I say primary circle I mean our selfs, the life we live, the people we soround ourselves with and the food we eat. We need to dig all the way down to, how do we get rid of the chronic inflammations that make our brains work against us rather then with us, how do we reclaim our right not to be perfect, how do we reestablish our social and intimate bonds with people and how do we get to the point where we can claim the right to therapy so that we got a chance to reprogram those mind patterns that has been disrupted, rather then taking dangerous life shortening medicine for life ?

Is pharmacology the solution to mood control ?




In 2001 WHO ( The World Health Organisation) stated that around 450 million people suffered from some kind of mental or neurological condition. That translates to one in four people. This year WHO estimated that 300 million people are affected by depression alone.

So why do we get so many people with mental disorders ?

Since a study done at Boston Children’s Hospital confirmed that mental illness is caused by inflammation. Hence we know that nutrition plays an essential role.

Studies has also made it 100% clear that there’s a clear link between stress and mental illness ( and depression in particular) – most likely this is because stress produces free radicals which again leads to inflammation.

Pharmacology has never been more big business then it is today. Could an increased use of medicine in general be causing more and more people to suffer from mental problems ?

Given our tagline “We question health” then at acesalus.com it’s impossible to look at these questions and not ask, is pharmacology the solution to mood control ?

So let’s dig into it. When it comes to psychiatric treatment more and more doctors are asking these questions, some of them can be found in the documentary Making a killing: The untold story of psychotropic drugging, which you can watch below:

But how good are the drugs that we use to treat these conditions ?

Well Pfizer who manufacture Zoloft which is a top selling anti depressive drug, received a huge blow as they were sued for misleading marketing when they failed to publish trials that showed placebo to beat zoloft.

Now the case was dismissed in court, however the fact remains that the trials where placebo beats Zoloft does exist and was excluded in the application for the drugs approval, which again leaves us with the question, how much can we trust the data from the studies where Zoloft showed better effect then placebo ?

When asking the question of wether patients on antidepressants has benefit of the drugs, then we also need to look at what these drugs to to people’s life expectancy.

What is very alarming is that the drugs used in psychiatric health care are very highly inflammatory by adding free radicals to your body. Wait ! , didn’t we start this article by saying that free radicals leads to inflammation, and inflammation leads to mental illness ? Yes ! we did, and that’s definitely cause for concern, but walks hand in hand with the fact that antidepressants have extensive side effects.

So – do we die from antidepressants ? That question is not for me to answer, but a study by Petrascheck published in nature in 2007 concluded that the component Mianserin increased life expectancy by 20-33%. But what is pretty worrying is that the same study showed a decrease in life expectancy for substances: Fluoxitine (11-48% decrease), Sertraline ( 76-80% decrease) and Paroxetine (42-76% decrease). But what’s even worse is that as Kim Zarse and Michael Riston attempted to recreate Petraschack’s results, their findings was that Mianserin not only significantly decreased life expectancy but also elevated body fat.

So if we have drugs with severe side effects, that most likely will kill you before time, and may not really help your mental issues – then we need to ask the question once again, is pharmacology the solution to mood control ?

My personal opinion is no. Pharmacology might be the best bet that we have today, or maybe not the best bet, but the most researched and marketed bet we have today, but pharmacology does not cure the problem, which is malnutrition ( to many calories with to little nutrients), stress caused by the way our society is put together, polution etc. The drugs temporarily puts a lit on the symptoms.

We need another paradigme !

Further Reading:

Antidepressants of the Serotonin-Antagonist Type Increase Body Fat and Decrease Lifespan of Adult Caenorhabditis elegans

An antidepressant that extends lifespan in adult Caenorhabditis elegans

Clinical trials on Zoloft vs. Placebo

Inflammation linked to mental illness !



Lupus is a chronic autoimmune disease that can damage skin, joints and/ or organs. When someone has Lupus then something goes wrong in the immune system , meaning that the body can’t recognize foreign invaders like bacteria and germs from it’s own healthy tissue and as a result the body starts attacking itself.

lupus, symptoms, inflammation

Up to 75% of those with Lupus develop neuropsychiatric symptoms. However we’ve been quite in the dark as to how Lupus affects the brain, until now. A new study from Boston Children’s Hospital thats been published in Nature has brought more clarification to the matter.

Allison Bialas who worked on the study told to medical Express that in general people with Lupus show symptoms of anxiety, depression, headaches, seizures, even psychosis but it’s only recently been accepted as symptoms of Lupus.

So much the more interesting the study. What they found was that in Lupus causes the body’s white blood celles to release type 1 interferon alpha, a cytokine that acts as an alarm signal and triggering a cascade of immune activity.

Until now it has not been thought that these cytokines was able to cross into the brain – however the new study shows that is the case, and once there it launces microglia which is the immune defense of the Central Nervous System, which caused synapses to be lost in the frontal cortex.

Now why is this study interesting ? Because the way the immune system works is to mark problems and dangers with inflammation, and as such Lupus has now become a model for hos mental illness is caused by an inflammatory response. Michael Caroll, senior author on the study concludes very clearly:”We’ve found a mechanism that directly links inflammation to mental illness,” .

You can find the study by following this link.